Writing

Anonymity

Memoir Excerpt

The following piece of non-fiction is a short excerpt from the memoirs I wrote a few years ago during NaNoWriMo. Editing is taking way longer than I expected but it is because I am doing start-and-stop editing. Anyway, here is a short piece which I have provided a name for the purpose of posting today, “Anonymity.” Feedback is welcome in the comment section below.

*          *          *

court

Anonymity

The first time I entered a courtroom I felt as if the yellow stripe on my pants flamed like a mark of embarrassment because I was self-conscious of my role and I felt awkward in a foreign environment. As was required of a police officer entering a court room, I bent slightly at the waist to show respect, but my eyes remained fixed on the room before me. Although a modest sized room, I felt as if it spanned out leagues in front of me. It was a dull coloured space filled with wood banisters, podiums, and stale air. There was nothing surprising in this room, but a mild feeling of disturbance moved through me like flowing water.

I was aware of what brought me duty bound to the courtroom. The small drops of blood on the floor, the scent of stale cigarettes and liquor, the slurred words of her story, sounds of crying, and the image of him running remained fresh in my memory. Although this trial was about their story I felt enmeshed in it and responsible for ensuring it didn’t happen to her again. I felt as if being called to provide testimony was somehow a reflection of me.

In my mind I whispered to myself the answers to the initial questions that would be asked of me when I took the stand. It was as if I needed to reassure myself of my name; today I wouldn’t be just my regimental number. I was equipped with the only weapon I was allowed to carry on the stand: my small work issued note book. It was heavy in my pocket with the scrawl of my bubble printing flowing in black ink over the numbered pages. It was their scribbled story and it was casting a body of light on me and I was trying not to absorb it.

I never testified that day. Instead, I felt a wash of relief as the judge reviewed the file. All the evidence I had meticulously complied was rewarded as he announced to the courtroom that it was excellent police work. Who I was or wasn’t remained an unspoken anonymity…

By Shari Marshall – Posted in 2019

Writing

No Better Place to Be

“We didn’t realize we were making memories, we just knew we were having fun” –Winnie The Pooh.

NOV 3 2019 image

That was grandma’s magic: time shared. It was a gift that she bestowed me. She taught me that the simple things can be filled with precious memories. She taught me the value of being in the moment, whatever it is, because there is no better place to be.

There was no place I wanted to be in the summers then at my grandparent’s cottage, but Cottagesomedays it felt like grandma had different ideas. It was in those moments that thoughts of the cool lake taunted me as the hours of heat seemed to slip away and I struggled with feeling trapped and irritated. Regardless, grandma always remained patient and focused on the task at hand.

In one such instance that sweet berry smell was alive in the humidity of the air but sadly I couldn’t see the beauty of the moment while I was in it. Instead I watched her crouched low. She was completely lost to the act of picking and filling buckets. She was oblivious to the time ticking by, time that was marked by sweat beads and anxious energy focused on anywhere but where I was. Her pale blue pedal pushers topped with a sleeveless white blouse stood out against the greens and browns of the berry patch. Watching her I could see hints of the 1930’s raspberryHollywood beauty in her mannerisms: regal, willful, and independent. I saw her as a truly remarkable woman.

With a sigh of resignation I moved back into the patch to help and without realizing what happened I fell under the spell. I will never know whether it was grandma herself, our laughter, the stained fingers, or the sweet juicy fruit coating my taste buds but the hours passed as stolen moments of time shared between us. These are moments that make sweet memories now that she is gone.

By Shari Marshall

Coffee Blog

Coffee and Dreams

The smell of coffee is alive in the air.

I used to have a dream of owning my own coffee shop. I wanted it to be a cute little shop with big comfy chairs, homemade baked goods, and a country theme. I wanted it to have a family/close friend atmosphere and I wanted to sell my crafts there too. In my head I could see myself serving fancy coffees while talking and laughing with the folks that were in for a visit.

My little coffee shop was to be located at the end of a long farmhouse driveway, my home away from home, and it was to be called “Country Kisses.” Anyway, somewhere along the line the dream shifted and I realized that I don’t know anything about coffee beyond that I like drinking it and that there are a lot of coffee shops that tick off the elements I listed for my coffee shop dream.

Anyway, if we were having coffee this November I would introduce you to this month’s theme: life stories. There is a great line up of posts planned for this month and it is probably my favourite month for posts. I hope you will pop in a few times this month, or every day to read, comment and share.

Non-Fiction

If we were having coffee this November I would tell that this last week felt really busy. I finished my Spanish course and have my Tuesday and Thursday nights back for a bit. Halloween night was beautiful for weather; it was probably the nicest Halloween night we have had in 4 or 5 years. Lots of fun and lots of candy. We watched “Richie Rich” for Friday night movie night. I hadn’t seen it before and it was cute. My oldest boy enjoyed it but the younger one thought it had some scary parts.

November already, wow!

If we were having coffee this November I would ask you if you have a dream that you would like to share?

By Shari Marshall – 2019

Writing

Whirlwind

CHAPEL TRP 13_9666
Photograph by videocam@mac.com

The winds whispered with unknown change. How was I to know that soon we were to be caught in its currents like a couple of fall leaves torn apart to follow individual columns of moving air and maybe land together when the winds released their hold.

I had gone to the mailbox that day unexpectant, but when I opened the box and saw the

SWEARING IN TRP 13_9911
Photograph by videocam@mac.com

8.5 by 11 inch brown envelop a wave of excitement followed. The envelop was heavy in my hand on the walk home and afterwards each time I lifted my black inked pen to detail another response the pen felt foreign in my hand. My letters all in upper case looked strange and childlike on the page. Was I really doing this?

I worked diligently at completing all the answers, my life reduced to a bunch of written words and statements scrolled on a pile of papers. It seemed unrealistic. Standing looking down at the package that detailed “me” from my beginning until the second my pen released no more answers seemed sad.

The period of time that followed passed like a lazy breeze on a day of heat and humidity, the kind of breeze you beg to come faster, stronger, and without pause. Instead the only tornado was inside me as I waited day after day for one call or another. I felt sure that the violently rotating winds inside me were bound to consume me.

It took 14 months for the phone to ring.

CHAPEL TRP 13_9673
Photograph by videocam@mac.com

There were so many discussions about where we hoped to live at the end of it all. Was this what we really wanted to do? Could we live apart for six months? Were we ready to leave friends and family behind? Could I survive the rigors of training? How do we deal with the unfinished aspects of our current life?

In a flurry we canceled our traditional wedding losing all our hard saved deposit money. Encouraged by the sudden gusts of wind we boarded a plane 3 months later to say “hago” on the beaches of the Dominican Republic. It was 8 months after that that the phone rang calling one half of the newly-wed couple to live in a dorm of women as a member of a troop of 32 men and women striving to reach the same goal.

Pearson airport never seemed as large as it did that day. Alone and racing toward the unknown I boarded a plane. I left my new husband in an eddy of 6 month preparation for an uncertain outcome. I was riding an air current that I hoped would deposit me as a member of Canada’s Police Force when the storm winds ended.

By Shari Marshall – 2019

GRAD EVENING TRP 13_8209
Photograph by videocam@mac.com
Writing

Night Demon: Distinct from the fictional world!

Ghost Stories OCT 31 2019 image

My first bachelorette apartment was one of my favourite places to live. It was in an old grey brick house. The house itself had a gothic look to it with its wide set of stairs that angled inward toward the top, they were lined with a white picket railing that attached to two tall white columns that lead higher into a white arch covered entrance. From the front, the house had two unproportioned bump-outs. The one on the right was more like a hexagon shape and it appeared that two rectangular windows could have fit in the space that held only one, and the roof on this side was a simple V-shape. However, the bump out on the right was an octagon with single rectangular windows fitted into the spaces perfectly, and the roof on the top of this section was a V-shaped crown that rose into an inverted cone. The fire escape ran down from the top window of the hexagon bending and shifting till it disappeared around the corner of the house.

My neighbour upstairs had actually been the driving force behind me getting this apartment because he vouched for me with the landlord. I hadn’t been sure at first of the idea of living alone, but since I had a friend living upstairs it offered me a small comfort. He would often knock on my door on his way past, sometimes he waited for me to answer and other times he just continued up the stairwell that ran up beside my front door. I always knew it was him because the smell of food and cooking grease clung to his clothing after a day in the kitchen.

My apartment had a small bathroom off of a tiny kitchen and then the remaining space was one fair sized room. The character in the main space was derived from the decorative ancient fireplace which had an ornate dark brown wooden mantel that I used to display all my framed photographs. To the right of the fireplace the octagon jetted out and created the illusion of a larger room. That octagon area was all windows with folding wood shutters, and it was my favourite space. I had set that area up cozy so I could spend my time reading or comfortably writing essays. It was a wonderful sun filled chamber with a view of the local Police Station, a park, and Tim Hortons.

However, I often heard a strange clicking sound in the octagon room, but I never really gave it much thought. It seemed to happen at night when I was laying quietly on the floor with my feet propped up the wall and a copy of Lord of the Rings gripped in my hands. I associated the sound to the radiant heating. The pipes lined the bottom quarter of the walls in the octagon room, and this was my first time experiencing radiant heating so the assumption came easily.

There were two other units on my floor, and two above me. The main level and the basement had apartments as well. It was said that the house itself had at one point been a family run funeral home and the basement had been where the bodies were prepared. I enjoyed sharing that bit of history with my more squeamish visitors. Perhaps as an emphasis of that creepy revelation, or perhaps as punishment for teasing my friends, I had a surprise one night that appealed to my own squeamishness.

I was sleeping on a mattress on the floor and I woke to a swishing sound which changed periodically to a scuffing sound on the light grey carpet around me. The carpet sound reminded me of the noise a mouse makes when moving around in the dark. I froze in the pitch black room and tried desperately to focus my eyes. The sound changed again to a sound like paper flapping in the air. Silence. Scuffling and a slight tugging sensation at the crown of my head involving my hair. I bolted straight up and whammed the light switch as my heart thundered in my chest. I was so busy casting my eyes over the grey Berber carpet that looking up hadn’t occurred to me until I felt a soft puff of air.

An instant later my thoughts had completed the dramatic shift from mouse to bat, and it was almost at the same time the tiny creature dove past my line of sight. I crouched, my adrenaline shot up and my mind kicked into hyper drive. The dam thing was going crazy flapping around the room and dipping low. My horror stricken mind went to thoughts of it purposely attacking me. The creature’s crazy flying pattern certainly created an impression of it dive bombing my head. An image of this crazed creature tangled in my long hair, both of us frantic, was more than I could bare. I screeched and fled from the room. I managed to bang on the kitchen light, grab the phone, and leap into the bathroom in a single motion.

Once safely inside I wildly raked my hands threw my hair trying to assure myself that I hadn’t inadvertently capture my winged visitor in my mad dash from the main room. My second measure of safety was stuffing a towel under the door because the last thing I wanted was it following me. I waited. As I stood there I started to feel a bit foolish, yet there was still an uncertainty about what to do next.

I called my step-father knowing that as a shift worker he often kept strange hours. He answered, and once I had assured him that my middle of the night call wasn’t overly ominous he burst out laughing. Although I wasn’t entirely sure I agreed, the best advice I received was that I couldn’t stay in the bathroom all night. Bravely I slung a towel over my head to protect my nest of hair and I edged the door open. There was no sign of distraught flight so I inched out into the kitchen. I gripped the phone in my hand still and described my progress into the handset and I ignored the silent amusement that leaked through the phone line. The little night demon was gone.

I slept with the lights on the rest of the night and a towel stuffed under my front door. The clicking noise had a new meaning now, it was more distinct then the movement of heat and water. It was more than clicking now that I was listening with a bit of knowledge, it was accompanied by scratching and squeaking. My step-father told me that the bat can squeeze in through a small hole, a hole as small as half an inch. I combed the area around the heating pipes for small holes and found none. It seemed that under the front door was its likeliest spot of entry.

Several nights later it returned. This time I acknowledged that I had the size advantage, and I loudly reassured myself that these creatures ate bugs. Not that I thought it was trying to suck my blood or anything, but the bug thing was a nice comfort. Lights on and bat out. I found a small crawl space in the kitchen behind my fridge and after sealing it up, Winston the bat didn’t get in again.

I took to calling the bat Winston because naming him gave him a pet like quality. I often found him sleeping in the stairwell outside my apartment. He was so tiny when curled up that he was just a soft looking little brown pompom. He looked peaceful when not frantically trying to escape the bright light. Winston the bat became an excellent addition to my funeral home stories especially when we were pre-drinking at my place before we walked to the bar and he decided to scratch and click in the walls.

By Shari Marshall – 2019

Ghost Stories OCT 31 2019 image 2

Writing

Torture & Torment

The Penis Chronicles presents, “Torture & Torment.”

Halloween has long been one of my favourite celebrations of the year. Graveyards, skeletons, ghosts, haunted houses, black cats, witches, bats, goblins, ghouls, spider webs and more; who doesn’t love it?

Now let’s talk torture and torment.

When I became a mother Halloween took on a new twist and shifted from haunted and scary to “oh so cute” as I enjoyed dressing my babies up in costumes they didn’t want to wear. Below is that first face of Halloween capturing a look of torture and torment.

October 31-doubles.JPG
Photograph by Shari Marshall ©

Do you have a Halloween child costume story to share?

By Shari Marshall – 2019


The Penis Chronicles is a weekly platform for sharing childcare stories, advice & etcetera. Raising children is an adventure! And please, I know the title says “penis chronicles”, but stories about raising girls are very much welcome. Please post and share your link and/or your comments in the comments section below.

Coffee Blog

Coffee boil and bubble

The cauldron is heating up over an open fire and the red orange flames are licking the cast iron sides. The glacier water, no longer glacier, starts to bubble making a nice rolling and bubbling sound. Into the cauldron an aged hand pours a small bowl of brown beans previously ground by a mortar and pestle. A fast stir followed by a pinch of cinnamon, a dash of sugar and a healthy dollop of rich English toffee cream. Stir. Return to a boil and ladle into waiting pewter goblets.

If we were having coffee I would start by sharing my apologizes because I had wanted to share this link last week and it slipped my mind; things have been so busy lately. Anyway, if you have a chance to check out this well written pieces I would recommend it: October Lights.

If we were having coffee I would say, “I can’t believe October is almost over! The fall has gone so quickly.” Stores have that interesting mix of Halloween and Christmas going on and that is very soon to change over to just Christmas. Wow! How has everyone found the fall?

If we were having coffee I would tell you that I am still slowly working my way through “The First King of Shannara.” I am a bit embarrassed by how slow my progress has been but I just haven’t had time to read. I have had an amazing amount of Spanish homework because there are only 2 classes left! Then I will be on my own for learning again. Anyway, I bought a Spanish exercise book and “The Sword of Shannara” with hopes to balance both. What are you reading or learning right now?

I am happy to share that my Spanish teacher moved our last class to Wednesday night so that I can go out trick-or-treating with my boys. They were a bit disgruntled at the thought that I might miss it and I was a bit sad about it to because Halloween is one of my favourite things in October. If we were having coffee I would ask what your Halloween plans are?

If we were having coffee I would end by sharing the theme for next month’s posts on Writing is Communication:

Non-Fiction

By Shari Marshall – 2019


Weekend Coffee Share is hosted by Eclectic Alli; hope you have a few minutes to join us for a virtual mug.

Writing

Ethan Sun

Witches

If I asked you to describe a witch I know what you’d say. Long pointed nose, warts or moles, a slightly hunched back, pointy shoes with a cape, long fingernails and possibly crooked teeth. Why you’d ask? I would say, it is because everyone knows that witches are creepy when they are old and strangely enchanting when they are young. Of course they carry the mark of the spider, a black cat as a pet and some would even say they are crazy, but most important to their nature is a need for adventure and a desire to share those adventures. That desire is what brings us to this story!

Crazy Aunt a.k.a Crazy A-nut

The labels strange, crazy, a nut, witch and more often come up when people talk about Gwen. Although none of them are very nice names Gwen didn’t mind. She fancied herself to be a nutty witch.

True to form, she lived alone in a tiny wooden shack with her grey and black cat named Basket. Her shack was on the edge of an old pond and that was surrounded by big old trees. The few people who were brave enough to travel down her dirt road often found her by the pond collecting snakes, toads and lily pads. In fact, that is exactly what she was doing when she meet Mr. and Mrs. Sun.

The Suns were lost one night on the way home from a friend’s house when Mrs. Sun’s labour pains started. The combination of unfamiliar side roads and a dark night found them lost. Tired and frightened Mrs. Sun pointed to the shack and grabbed her stomach. As they walked toward the front door of the shack a rustling sound to the right caught their attention. Gwen emerged from the shadows with a cloth bag that was moving of its own accord. “Inside with both of you, “Gwen ordered. “That woman is going to pop and we can’t have that happening on my porch.”

Things happened to quickly after that, Mr. Sun phoned for an ambulance while towels were tossed into a waiting cauldron of boiling water. There in the shadow filled shack, by the light of one burning candle, Ethan Sun was born. The ambulance arrived shortly after the birth, the driver was flustered from his attempts to find the shack. They took mother and child to the hospital; both happy and healthy. The strange woman in the shack was not forgotten but the open invitation the Suns gave her soon was.

The Crib

Mr. and Mrs. Sun had come home from the hospital to find a beautiful dark wood crib on their porch with a green silk ribbon on it. They never questioned its appearance and Ethan settled into it comfortably. Everyone just assumed the other had given it as a gift and so nobody bothered to question it out loud. Time moved on.

A-nut and the crib – how it all began

Ethan’s crazy Aunt Gwen, who wasn’t really his aunt but more of a woman who simply decided to assume the title and role, had gifted him the crib after marking it for adventure and thus marking Ethan for many unusual and exciting experiences. To the normal observer, especially Ethan’s parents, his crib was just a regular dark wood crib with average round bars and an average bed bottom. So, nobody except Gwen could really understand why at age seven Ethan insisted that the crib remain a permanent fixture in his room.

Now back to Gwen.

When Ethan was barely one year old his parents let him home with her while they went out to dinner. A-nut Gwen, true to form, showed up in black tights with long burgundy dress over them. The dress had the air of a witch’s cape to it because it was split up both sides to mid-thigh and had a big black spider pin clipped to the top of the v-neckline. When Ethan’s parents opened the front door to greet her she had her hood up making the shadows on her face frightening. Ethan’s parents wondered for a moment what they had been thinking as they watched the shadows dance in the wrinkles of Gwen’s face as if they were alive. Crazy pieces of hair blew out from under the sides of the hood even though there was no breeze. Gwen cackled softly and pushed the hood down instantly transforming her image into a friendly, almost enchanting, lady.

Ethan watched in silent fascination from his crib as his parents left him with this thin but menacing woman. She snapped her fingers as she approached the crib and she looked younger as she reached to pick Ethan up. She held him out at arm’s length inspecting him. “Oh, yes Ethan you will do just fine. I can see courage in you boy. But your adventures must wait a bit longer. For now we must put you to bed.”

Gwen placed him in the crib. “I must apologize for my manners. I am your crazy Anut Gwen, and child that is spelled A-N-U-T. I think you will find that suits me better. I am going to help you have some adventure and learn your magic as befits a young prince; a prince who is going to save our world. Please don’t be afraid, but watch this closely.” With that Gwen dropped to the floor and crawled under Ethan’s crib. Her whole body disappeared, it was an amazing trick for an adult to hide completely under a crib! There was some banging, a loud yell, some smoke followed by lightning and sparks shooting out from under the sides of the crib and a faint smell of chocolate chip cookies. Then it went quiet. Ethan watched, his big brown eyes alive with wonder. Gwen crawled out from under the crib looking tired. “Sorry child the door was stuck, hasn’t been opened in centuries and of course the house elf wasn’t expecting company and there was a bit of a disagreement about the drag…err what kind of cookies to make. Gwen passed him a warm chocolate chip cookie and smiled. “Everyone knows that you are now the key holder for the door under the crib and they will be expecting you when you are ready. There now child, sleep.”

Ethan’s eyes slide shut. That night his dreams were filled with magic and wonder.

By Shari Marshall – 2019

Writing

Don’t ignore that cold warning tingle.

May 27 2019 moonCindy lived alone.

Cindy entered her darkened house. She was tired after a long day. Without turning on a light she locked the door behind her and walked the ten familiar steps into her kitchen and flicked the light on her microwave on casting a soft glow into the room around her.

A door closed on the upper level of her house. She froze, waiting, and another faint sound filled her ears. A door slowly creaked open. All the hair rose up in her head and arms causing that cold warning tingle to ripple over her body.

Bracing herself for the unknown she slowly started to move forward throwing lights on in front of her. Eyes wide, body tense, she moved up the stairs. The eerie silence now heightened her sense of fear. The hallway was empty; all the doors stood open. She move mechanically from room to room clearing closets, dark corners, under the beds and behind the curtains. She found nothing and nobody.

Cindy’s body remained on high alert as she went from room to room one more time. She then did the same thing on the first floor of her house and then forced herself to do it in the basement as well. Something still felt wrong but she couldn’t explain it. Unsettled she slipped into her bedroom turning the lights off behind her so that when she shut her bedroom door the rest of the house laid in darkness. Cindy felt a bit silly as she went about her nightly routine of washing up in her master bathroom. Had she really just prowled through her house from room to room in an attempt to ensure her own safety and peace of mind because she thought she heard a door close in an empty house? What next, she thought?

Still a bit reluctant she turned out her light casting her bedroom into darkness. She slid slowly under the blankets trying to make as little nose as possible. Her eyes searched the May 27, 2019 darknessdarkness inside her locked bedroom wondering if the shadows were moving. A bang startled the night. It sounded as if it came from somewhere inside her house. Her breath caught. She froze straining her ears.

Silence.

Her door remained closed and unaccosted.

Cindy spent the night tossing and turning: restless. When morning dawned she rose unrested and prepared for her day. Cautiously she opened her bedroom door feeling mildly ridiculous for continuing the charade. She started down the stairs and a cry Secret Life FEB 19 2019 imageescaped her.

Her front door, clearly unlocked from the inside, stood wide open!

By Shari Marshall – 2019

Miscellaneous

They Mystery of the Haunted House – Guest Post by a 9 year old

The Penis Chronicles presents, “They Mystery of the Haunted House.” (Guest Post)

The following post was written by a 9 year old boy with a creative imagination who has enjoyed the story writing activities presented to him at school.


They Mystery of the Haunted House

Once upon a time there was a mystery crew and they solved a bunch of mysteries. However, there was one mystery that was the hardest for them to solve. When they heard about the haunted house they got into the mystery machine and drove and drove until the gas ran out. They got out of the mystery machine and walked the rest on the way to the house. They were hungry and thirsty when they finally opened the front door. They walked inside and the door slammed shut behind them as the chandelier crashed to the ground in front of them. Scared they ran through the house and tried to get out the back door. It wouldn’t open. They ran back to the front to try that one again but it wouldn’t open either.

Trapped they looked around and saw a graveyard out the window. Somehow they knew they had to get out of there so they climbed out the window. The searched through the tombstones reading every one until they found what they were looking for. The name “Old Man Jenkins” stood out because he was the owner of the house. Clearly he was the ghost haunting the house.

The crew returned to the house and began looking for clues. The crew found glass, skeletons and zombies as well as other scary things. Frightened they tried to get out the front door again but it was blocked. They ran up the stairs and hid in the closet. After a while they came out of the closet and the house was silent. Before they could leave the room the air filled with green dust. They ran, but before the last of them got out of the room the green dust started to control her. She chased the others and shot green dust at them from her mouth and nose. She caught everyone except the dog and one boy.

Everyone was running in circles and becoming dizzy. The boy and the dog ran down the stairs and hid in kitchen by the fridge. They were too busy eating snacks to notice the green dust heading in their direction. Something tackled the dog so the dust could take control of him. They never got out of the house. Five years later their bodies were discovered in the house.

The end.

By Ace – 2019


**The Penis Chronicles is a weekly platform for sharing childcare stories, advice and etcetera. Raising children is an adventures! And please, I know the title says “penis chronicles”, but stories about raising girls are very much welcome. Please post and share your link and/or your comments in the comments section below.**